Chief's Original Bootcamp: Day #1

Confessions of a first-time bootcamper/supposed 'bimbo':

If window shopping/actual shopping is your only exercise, you'll be able to truly identify with me.

It was 6.10am.

Thought I woke up on time as it only takes 10mins to reach USJ1 from my crib. Woke the snoring sis up, washed up, get dressed, tied up a pony tail, all ready to conquer my physical limits and resurrect my stamina.

One problem:

My pants were a tad too long. So I went around the house searching for safety pins. But I could not find a single, miserable, tiny pin in sight. Unbelievable.It was already 6.35am. Bootcamp starts at 6.45am sharp. I am so super late.

Gulped a glass of hot drink and drifted to the battleground.

By the time we reached, everyone and I mean, EVERY SINGLE ONE were already doing their warm ups and everything. Sis and I panicked and ran around aimlessly looking for a place to report ourselves. Apparently we looked like lost chicken but ANYWAY.

We were required to run 5 laps (5 or 6? or 10? lost count! the only thing that I thought abt was to stay alive), come back to our initial starting point, do push ups, sit ups, etc. By the time I was done with the torture, 5 things were running in my mind:

#1: Where did my dancer's stamina go???!!!!

#2: I feel nauseous.

#3: I wanna go home.

#4: What did I get myself into?!

#5: Wait, I really really need to puke.

But I didn't cos I was shy and my puke was also shy like me so it went back in.

Plus, I didn't know where to puke. The open field? The dustbin? The bench?

Then, God sent his rain.

I was secretly feeling happy.

Thought we could go home but NO, another 8 laps to go. In the rain. In the cold, cold rain.

In my heart I was singing,

'I know that You are for me,

I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness.'

God. Whyyy.

But anyway, drama aside, managed to finish all 8 laps with Andrea Kee, who also felt as nauseous as me.

As time went by, it all became easier.

Lookin' forward to the next Bootcamp! ;)

No, I mean it.

Here's our victory rawwwwwwr!

Ok, just me and Gladys :(

Gotta go get ready for a shoot now.

Long day ahead, but I feel refreshed :)

Hooyah!

love, careen

Janet Jackson Started Dieting When She Was 11

Celebrities arrive at the Lanvin Show during the Paris Fashion Week Spring/Summer 2011Janet Jackson has been performing since she was seven, and she admits she's been battling issues with her weight since she was "very little."She explained: "It’s been a tough road, a tough battle since I was very little and not feeling worthy. There were self-esteem issues, issues dealing with food stemming

Of killer heels and distorted feet

why is this poor girl using her antique phone to camho?

thanks to my cute little sis who dropped the camera and spoiled it instantly :( i dropped it countless times before but it survived! oh well :(

working for AXE these two weeks. not too bad, except that we need to walk around in heels a lot. poor me is seriously suffering from feet-distortion.

like, the girls actually prepare one packet of plaster for each day of work. major, huh? well, that's the hard work and suffering beneath the good-looking exterior. see photos of girls smiling oh-so-sweetly in Super GT and F1? they suffer like, 10x more. hot sun and aching feet! yucks.

after i removed my sky-high heels, weird things would pop put of my feet. like veins or something. then when i press on them it aches like nobody's business. like bruises but not bruises cos where got bruises pop out wan, right??

and i also noticed that my toes are growing in weird directions. their bone structures are getting funny looking too. or am i just scaring myself?

*sigh* guess i'd need Boon who hasn't seen me for almost 3 weeks now to verify..see if he can tell the difference.

i'm really wondering if there are any heels that wouldn't cause feet to hurt, and also distort the whole structure. if there's someone who can come up with such super-heels, i'd kowtow to that person 500 times i promise!!!!

it is truly painful to look good, at least to match up with society's image of "looking good". plus, i'm not very vertically well-endowed so heels have become so necessary! argh why am i a girl :(

okay, this is when you come around and console me.

just kidding! :D

signing off. *group hug*

love, careen.

Victorian Hairdo

good hair days.

not today though. had a series of weird dreams, woke up throat still as bad, hair desperate for treatment, and therefore it is now soaked in hair treatment product.

the reason for hair treatment is simple. my crowning glory has undergone a series of hard labour. backcombing, spray, curls, pin-ups, etc etc from Sunday's Hair Ministry Hairshow and Monday's photoshoot for Sisters Magazine.

this is what i find funny.

on Sunday right after the Hairshow, boon immediately sent me to wash my hair. but due to the HUGE victorian hairdo (pictures below), i needed more manpower than anybody else.

one.

two.

three.

haha no wonder they had to charge me more than usual..
i took away three of their stylists' time'!


and no one has been rougher with my hair than the super swift, but also super rough hair stylist for Sisters Mag shoot :( :(


no pics from the shoot cos i left my cam at home.
but pics of the hairshow!


the Victorian Hairdo.

huge! now you know why i needed 3 stylists

to help me un-backcomb, remove pins, and comb my hair.

super nice!

it could act as my pillow too ;)

i have never worn that skirt before!
always can't find the right time to wear it.

mei ling, varsha and i.

mei ling and i.

model group pics.

Jeffrey- the mastermind behind the Victorian hairdo

albert's blonde moment. hehe.

the official photog..for me :D

*muax*

*sniff sniff cough cough*

blame the weather! need lots of rest :(

till then!

*group hugs*

love, careen.

And the body ache gets worse!

the body ache which resulted from the non-stop (okay, altogether 4 mins break) 4-hour dance workshop with OSchool is getting worse by the day!

at first it was the back sore due to excessive arching from Reggae, then the inner thighs, then the neck cos i was standing at the front, and to look up the stage for the instructor with my height adds to the neck pain. then i had calves cramp DURING the workshop (my, i'm getting lembik...), and now, up down left right center all pain!

the only way i can comfort myself is that i'm growing muscles that's all :)
but i had so much fun during the workshop. and all the songs from their dance performance are still stuck in my head! too engrossed!!

wanna learn dance again. any type of dance..

anyways, Jonathan posted my car equipment pics taken about a month ago on FB. and trust me, i still have NO idea what a posed with.

all i know is this thing is DAMN heavy!

no idea what these things are too.
believe me, the mini little stuff on the carpet are heavy too!

this is my favourite among the three :)
just like the question mark on the product, i have NO IDEA what it was!

back to the pain, now i'm walking down the stairs like a granny. wait, my granny. holding the sides and walking down step by step. now i know her pain!

need some loveee....

p/s: sowwie bee....... *acting cute*

love, careen.

PC Fair + Semi-Deafness

PIKOM PC Fair 09
31st July- 2nd August

taken by baby. how brilliant. his unshakable hand :)

those were the few days which i gained some experiences, extra cash, and also extra strain on my health. i had bad throat inflammation, remember? and that was when all the rest came tagging along- cold and all, and also the new kid on the block- ear pressure.

let me explain further.

using Careepedia (which only applies to Careen Tan Xin Yi alone):

The Ear Pressure Symptom is caused by throat inflammation. The heat in the body gets too overwhelming and has to be let out through either one of the "exits" or "holes" in the body. And it is then let out through the left ear. But, it is not let-out immediately. It could take up to 2-weeks, 2-months, or even 2-years (okay,let's hope not).

So while the heat is still in the body and the pressure is ON, the left ear is semi-deaf. It is just as when you get off the plane and you get pressures on your ears. But this is just the left ear. It is not similar to that of the plane-pressure which lasts not more than 3-weeks usually. The difference is that this ear pressure is coupled with sharp constant pain, beat-throbbing (i could hear my heartbeat in my left ear for a week now), and semi-deafness as i mentioned.

So, you can imagine how fun it was working in Hall 1 with thousands and thousands rubbing shoulders, arms, boobs (??? don't know, too distracted by the Ear Pressure), butt (??? hope not...), with people sneezing and couging in your face.

Also, not forgetting the constant noise pollution. Hall 1 was not carpetted like the Ballroom so it was much noisier, and crowded, and everything worse. Except for the fact that it was not as freezing cold like in the Ballroom.

Until now, i'm still semi-deaf. slowly but surely recoveing. Till then, do speak a little louder to me and be lovingly patient if i'm unable to answer your questions properly.

e.g.:

You: Eh Careen, how are you??
Me: I'm 20 years old :D
You: =.="

Boon: I love you....
Me: Huh???? What??
Boon: =.="

Lecturer: When i talk in the front, nobody else is allowed to talk.
Me: Excuse me, miss, can you repeat what you just said??
Leturer: =.="

hmmmm......please don't despise me bcos of my semi-deafness :(
please be patient and loving :(

now i definitely know how my ah-gong felt last time. it was always irritating having to repeat every single thing we say to him even when it was at the loudest volume. but can't hear means can't hear la...not nice to not being able to hear.

especially when you're sampat like me who likes to talk and listen to gossips. muahahahahaa :P now eavesdropping is definitely out of my radar, so, no fear, everybody.

oh right, this post is supposed to be about PC Fair.
hahahaha long story short, if not for the money, i would have long given up the job at the first hour. throughout the 3 days, i was this close to fainting (which many girls did).

But i managed to complete it..thanks to my parents' love & of course,
my personal body guard who protected me from all danger and harm :)

during my break.

on the way home.


it's sweet when you help me take off my stinky killer heels and help me put on my Roxy Flipflops whenever we go for my break. thanks for feeding me with so much good food though they're making me who i am today- fat. thanks for all the hard-sayangs. thanks for all the waiting and waiting and doing-nothings. thanks for all the cheering up and cheering on.

love you. couldn't have done it without you :)

there were almost 30 photographers who took my photos,
and poor me only managed to get ONE miserable, tired looking photo out of the lot. hahhaha so here's one for you.

i hate that green.

anyways, catching some beauty sleep.
g'nights and *group hug*

love, careen.

The inflammation

here it is again- the legendary throat inflammation.

since i was little, i've been having very sensitive throat. and once i get throat inflammation, that's it. the rest will start pouring in- fever, flu, and the whole sick cycle will come around again.

yesterday i woke up with a sore throat, and then my throat was inflammed. then it was followed by the sick-feeling (i bet you know what i'm talking about), and finally the ultimate one, fever.

had to struggle to finish my test articles for a part-time writer job i'm applying for. struggled and managed to finish one yesterday, two more to go for today.

the sucky part is that i can't even think like how i normally do. that explains why my blog post is so different today. no sampat stuff, no camho pics (totally no mood for that, strangely). let alone think creatively.

woke up today and thought i'd feel a least bit better, but nope i didn't. it felt as if a hadn't taken med at all..it is still the same sick feeling i felt yesterday.

let's hope this will not go on and develop into some swine-related disease. and wish me all the best and hopefully the writer-company will be able to understand what i'm writing to them.

love, careen.

period pain...........

a random candid shot taken by the bf.
was suffering from severe cramp and just had to lie down on the seats in Rakuzen to ease the pain a little.

i couldn't even really put myself to enjoy my favourite Salmon Sashimi.

sometimes, being a girl is not such a bliss.
the kinda pain most of us go through every month will be something that the male species will never be able to understand. it's times like these that makes you wanna just stay at home and do nothing. lie on the bed and get emo...

this is the second time i'm blogging about this cruel, constant pain. some of you would paobably think that period pain is nothing compared to labour pain but it has got nothing to do with me yet so period pain is still the joy-killer. sigh...it puts me in such a bad mood.

just makes me feel so lifeless each time. having the day off today, thought i could take some time off uploading pics and videos onto facebook, blog, blog-hop, surf the net, but turns out,

i think i'm falling sick :(

feeling cold all of a sudden. coughing all of a sudden.
and how can we forget, the constant cramp in the stomach.

i wanna rest and take a nap, but another part of me says that i should make use of my time,
since i have some in my hands right now.

somehow, i just can't seem to get myself to lie down and rest.

sigh. why??

this love's difficult, but it's real.

since i'm quite free today (only today *sobs*),

why not blog some more? :)

HTV for May 30-31st weekend.
it's one of my favourite and most satisfied makeups i've done on myself!

*claps for self* :))

been hearing that over-played, overrated and over-heard song by Taylor Swift so much. yes, you guessed it right...Love Story.

but then it struck me a few days back that the song is actually...my own love story.
i caught myself by surprise when i naturally teared when i paid attention to the lyrics.


we were both young when I first saw you...

...you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,begging you, 'Please, don't go.'"

And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princessIt's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.'

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'"

...Romeo save me - they're tryin' to tell me how to feel;
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say "Yes.'"

...Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.Is this in thy head?
I don't know what to think-"He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet - you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad - go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

just snippets of the entire song..and the above were really what we went through in our 4 and a half years of being together.

each time i tried to sing along to the song, my voice would shake and i'll start to tear. the feeling of the songwriter overwhelms me each time, which reminds me of what i went through..the struggle that nobody knew.

we started out young..or rather, me.
the consequences that come with it were overloading...
but we made it through...so much.

there's really nothing we can't fight anymore...

i love you.

love, careen.

now, where was i?

hey all :)
havent blogged for only 2 days and it felt like ages! especially when so many things happened along the way. will update on the happenings as soon as i have the time ;)
*takes time to post up all the pics and stuff. phew!

and guess what, i did the most impulsive shopping i'd ever done in my entire life yesterday. went to Pyramid right after work, shopped around while sisters had dinner. saw this red floral summer tube dress, and straight away tried it in the fitting room. before i even tried it on, darling called and said he's arriving in a minute! so i did the fastest changing of clothes ever, and look into the mirror for 3 secs, and there i go..walking outta the boutique with a brand new purchase! :D

besides, i also got some good buys from forever21. i was definitely a happy shopper *glees* :D

met soooo many familiar faces in pyramid! there was not even one time that i don't bump into someone familiar! i'm sure it's the same for you too (those who live in Klang Valley, that is). it's also the same for 1u!

hahah that's why i always say, never go pak-toh in these two places if you're in an underground relationship. simply too risky! been there, done that..so take my advice! ;P or at the other extreme, if you can't wait for ppl to know who you're newly with, go there too! :P

-♥-

on a sadder note, yours truly has not been feeling too well :(

have been working for these few days, thus the lack of posts. while working, yours truly needs to stand most of the time..if not, all the time! and because of that, i've been having backache and legs-ache (if there's such word. hahah)

plus lots of washing, cleaning and stuff..and when in a rush, i'm usually quite careless, so there comes all the cuts and bruises.

as for stress, i have been having insomnia :( and this is due to none other than the Hip Hop competition that i willingly signed up for. *pfft*

the competition is on Feb 28..and i've NO choreos figured out at all! None! Nil! Zero!!! :((
talk about the stress it gives me. plus, i don't know what to wear too. and THAT is stressful. the most important and stressful bit, it's an international competition and it is HUGE.

if it's some small inter usj20 dance competition, i wouldn't feel so stressed out. but this is for the entire Malaysia, if not, the whole world too! (as it says in its flyer, open to the world) *gasps deeply and shivers*

nowadays, i don't manage to sleep until 2-3 hourse of lying on the bed, eyes closed but still wide awake, and stuff just running through my mind. steps, choreos, attire, etc. i came up with lots of great choreos, but remembering and putting them into action is another different issue altogether. my mind is active all the time because of that, though i may be physically very drained out. not good. not good. even worse when there's work or morning prayer the next day. arrggh :(

these sum up the current me:

1. lack of sleep + lots of stress = a very very sad girl

2. lots of stress = lots of eating = lots of fats

3. lots if fats = loss of hot body

4. loss of hot body + lots of body pain = physical, emotional & mental suffering.

5. physical, emotional & mental suffering + a repeated cycle from No. 1 till No.4

= a very depressed yours truly :(

thank God after tomorrow's work, yours truly will be escaping to Malacca for CNY for the entire week. no need to think about coffee bean, no need to think about dance world, no need to think about keeping in shape (it's gonna go out of shape anyway..cry about it after CNY), etc etc.

i'll also have more time to sleep, snack, pig out, think about my dance choreo, eat, exercise (?), spend time with family members, eat, snack, pig out, and the cycle keeps repeating... :D

caught in the act. yours truly's journey of gaining weight.
*horror*

before i go, yours truly wishes everyone a

BLESSED CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! :)))
dong dong dong chianggggg!!!

pig out & stay in shape everyone! and that includes myself! :P

Gong Xi Fa Chai, Xin Nien Kuai Le, Wan Shi Ru Ee,
Xin Xiang Shi Chen, Gong Xi Gong Xi!!!! :))


p/s: wah, my han yu pin ying not bad ;)

love, careen.

blue-ish feelin'

have been watching dance videos all day long to get inspirations for my dance competition, which is just about a month away. have got stuff in mind to do, but still no inspiration and more importantly, motivation!!

how? :(

why do i always have to wait till the very last minute to have motivation one? huuhuu :(
probably i should just get my butt off the couch and start dancing instead.

-♥-

got my typhoid jab last night before a drink with jo. gosh i hate injections! i used to hate it with my life, but then now as i grow older, the fear is not so great anymore.

but still! that jab was one of the most painful ones i'd ever had! super painful man..the doc said it penetrates not just skin deep but muscle deep *gulps*.

the pain started to kick in...right before i was asleep. *major sigh* i had prayer meeting the next day and was supposed to wake up at 515am, but then due to the immense pain and lack of sleep, i stayed at home to rest and treat my still aching left arm. it's still swollen and i hope and hope some more that it'd all be gone by tomorrow cos yours truly needs to work and teach dance classes at night.

-♥-

with the injection pain and stress about the competition, yours truly is officially declared feeling blue. yours truly will also be working on the weekends. lagi blue.

*sighs*

:(

love, careen.