nothings gonna change my world.

Wow we haven't updated in a looong time. Well a lot of things has been happening in my life since the last update. One important event is the birth of my baby sister, Sophie Soo Yun Kim--born on July 7, 2008 at 5:15am. I am sorry to not have pictures up because it is on my cousin's camera who has still not uploaded them ;(. The last couple days with this newborn has been crazy. The crazy thing is our seventeen year old difference. But I am not worried about us not being close. Our family is always close. But she is so cute but I realize, babies scare me. Whenever she cries, I am scared to DEATH that I would not be able to get her to stop and sometimes she is so fragile. But she is an angel and I love her to death and she is happy addition and now my family is very happy and in a very good mood (especially my father). Our life has not totally changed 180 because of her, but it has slightly changed. Wow I have forgotten what it is like to raise a baby. The toddler years are the worst. When my sister Tiffany (now she is nine) was 4 or 5, she was a holy terror. I pretty much raised her then because both my parents were working and she would spread peanut butter and ketchup everywhere the moment I would go away from the room. She is still a bit of a terror, but at least she can take care of herself now.

So while my mom and dad were at the hospital, my sister and I were up all night and I finally got to watch Across the Universe. It has sitting in my computer files forever!!! Well it is one of my favorite musicals but as a movie, it wasn't great. The beginning was confusing with the not smooth transitioning of introducing characters. Pretty much bad transitioning for most of the movies and it got pretty trippy/hippie sometimes. But the thing that saved it was the music. ALL THE SONGS WERE FREAKING AMAZING and beautiful. Jim Sturgess is an AMAZING SINGER (and that girl...whose name i cannot remember). And their love was beautiful. I love the ending.

So I finally got my AP scores. Whoot. I actually go it the day Sophie was born. Haha very...joyous. Hanh called me at the hospital and I checked it the minute I went home. Well I just ripped it open and saw the scores 4,2,5,4. One 4 was from last year's ap world history. But I got us history - 4, chemistry - 2, english lit & comp - 5. It was freaking amazing and sad. I am sad about chemistry but I deserve the score. I was not smart enough in chemistry. I can only balance so much ap classes in my life. I am not a megagenius but I AM EFFIN PROUD OF THOSE OTHER TWO SCORES ESPECIALLY THAT FIIIIIIVEEEE! I thank my wonderful teacher for making me WANT to be a good writer, for making me WANT to improve, and for HELPING me grow and I thank myself for actually doing good in english this year and actually getting an A (one of the only two A's for that year in english ap). I don't know how I did and why I got it and I wish collegeboard gave DETAILED score results but DAMN, I am freaking amazed at myself. I deserved my scores through and through. I have never studied so hard for so long, not even last year.

So today, I had a very nice day. "The group" --adrienne, jerri, tiffany, kingston-- came over to my house and we went swimming and then went to park to play night tag/hideandseek with my cousins and sister. It was a lot of fun actually especially when it is dark at night and you can only see figures instead of faces. But mannn, it was a lot of running since we declared a "free for all" so the whole park was open for hiding. And in the process of hide and seek, Tiffany managed to break a pipe and water gushed on the walkway and grass and we got scared but also make a youtube video to tell the story and went home so we would not get caught. I hope it is still not running, then the whole grass area and neighborhood would get floooded, OOOPS.

Afterwards, my aunt really wanted to go to Red Berry (my workplace) because she was craving frozen yogurt. I took her and my cousins there the day before and she loved it. So we had to get yogurt for my two aunts and little cousins and the total came out to be 48 bucks!!! That is a lot of yogurt. But it was good. I got to my work even when I AM NOT WORKING.

It is always to take pictures, to remember days like these. We take pictures at the park too much. I love the TOOOP picture!!! I think it is so cute.

.christina.

summer loving.

So far, summer has been great ...except the days I stay home and do NOTHING which is really LAMMMME. But I have lots of plan for summer and I hope my summer can stretch and fit everything I want to do. I guess because I feel like this could be the LAST SUMMER with my crew, that I am kind of trying to squeeze all the experiences I can into it. I like taking it one day at a time, but I don't want to waste a moment that could be for memories.

Pachia suggested that we both do summer journals to write about our summer and I really suck at sticking journals, but it is actually a good idea. I have been writing almost every day in the journal actually. Even if I didn't do much that day, I just write what I was thinking of or things that have been going through my mind. I know we already have this blog, but the journal is a little more personal and a little easier to pour out my feelings because some of my thoughts are way too lame and embarrassing to be typed online.

So I guess the first sad thing that has happened and made me realize about the whole "growing up, and growing apart" experience is my friend Eunsong leaving to move back to Korea. She came sophmore year but she really did not become part of our group until junior year. Even though I wasn't the closest with Eunsong, it was really sad to lose a person and to know she won't be there to GRADUATE with us next year. That is the saddest part. So the day before she left, we made an effort to get the group together and hang out with her before she left. It was really chill and we just hung at Tiffany and Adrienne's houses and played rockband and karaoked but I had to leave early because I had to work. What made me even sadder was the fact that some of us probably will never see Eunsong again and when we do, we will be all GROWNUP and adults. Pretty weird.
Picture: Ross, Tiffany and ME rockbandiiing. I am wearing MELANIE's GIFT to me. haha.

plans for summer.

• going to michelle's house to watch the premiere of camp rock (we are lame i know!!)
• leatherby's with maggie, michelle and adrienne for senior time & ice cream
  
• going to sf for a day; thriftin in sf, taking sticker pictures in j-town, etc
• folsom lake trip
  
• board game night at adrienne's
• flying kites
  
• going to arcade (or chuck E cheese!!!)
  
• karaoke at rurulala
  
• picnic at park?
  
• trying to finish a whole drama in a day with pachia
• star gazing
• going to second saturday downtown
• theme park
  
• mini golfing
• watch the sunrise

serious personal goals.

• start summer work early; dont get out of the "school mode".
• save moooneeey
  
• organize life to prepare self for senior year
• figure out future plans
  
• dont be scared of the future

HAVE A SAFE SUMMER!

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My summer party went off with a bang! It was a refreshing way to start summer. You can witness the fun through our lame youtube videos.

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finally FREEE.

Pachia is gaaaaayyy and says she has nothing to post so I will post. So this week has been pretty crazy. I have officially ended junior year, went to graduation of my senior friends, took SAT IIs and lots of finals. CRAZY!!! Looking back, it seems like this was not a couple days ago. Well Tuesday and Thursday were finals but Thursday was last day and I actually did not have any serious finals in my classes. Yay.

WEDNESDAY's graduation. I didn't go to school that day because it was only 3 hours long and I wanted to leave for graduation before everyone else did after school. Hanh, Tiffany, and Jessica got a ride from me. I-5 was closed so we took the long way (local), felt like a million years to get to Arco Arena. To say it short; graduation was pretty okay. But the whole time I was thinking "This is us next year!" As I saw seniors walking the stage, people making the speeches, all I could think was about next year and ME GRADUATING and MY FRIENDS GRADUATING?! Surreal. Very. I cannot believe we have gotten this far. The two speeches made by the valedictorian (who I actually know) and the speaker at large (who I also know) were pretty inspirational. Even though they said the usual "cliche" kind of things... I felt the speeches were directed at me also. Gabe's quote for his speaker at large speech was the best.

“And will you succeed?
Yes! You will indeed!

(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed)”

-----DR SEUSS "oh, the places you will go"

Amy's valedictorian speech was mainly about how we should not be afraid of success. At first I was thinking.. I am more afraid of failure but I think at the same time, she is right. We are afraid of taking the future HEAD ON and being afraid to do things alone. We have to take chances. She inspired me to think that I will change my attitude for senior year. I AM GOING TO TAKE SENIOR YEAR FULL ON and no complaints and no fears. This whole time that people have being saying "oh yeah we are finally gonna be seniors yay". But I am in denial. I really do not want to be a senior. I am just a little girl who wants to stay at home and suck her thumb. But I have to be brave. I have to not fear anything. I will just do it and get it done! FOR ME AND ME ONLY!!!

But after the graduation, we rushed to go find as many of our senior friends as we could and take pictures and have "last goodbyes". I did not find all my friends :(, but it was all good. It was fun and it was actually a pretty happy event, I did not cry at all.

Tiffany, Francis and Me.
Francis went to the Phillipines for college :(

Before Graduation, at my house. Our dresses!!!
I wore my "wild dress".

Gabe had a million things in his hand so we (tiffany and I)
had to pull out his phone out of his pocket and hold it for him,
while we were taking pictures he was on the phone.

Jirell and ME.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL was on Thursday. It was a really chill day for me. In AP Chemistry we had a potluck. So we wanted to make pancakes from the left over mix we had because Chem Club always has breakfast meetings. So we took two hot plates and foil on both. We put enough batter for one small pancake on one hot plate, then we took the foil and flipped it on to the other. Taylor sprayed on some non-stick spray (BAD IDEA) and we put the pancake batter on. Then it started to sizzle and bubble and Lissah thought it smelled weird and she said we should flip it. So we took the foil and flipped it but then IT BURST INTO FLAMMMMMESSS. It was right underneath the wooden cabinents too. Well we paniced and we couldn't think of anything to do. I was in the motion of thinking which way to run to put out the fire even though there was sweet tea in front of me and a sink next to the fire. Well the fire died out by itself a minute after but we were all shocked. We probably would have died at our slow reactions. We had to open the doors and windows because of the smoke. It was pretty crazy. That was a nice way to end AP Chemistry. At lunch, we just took lots of silly last day pictures of course.

Our cheesy crew

In celebration for last day of school, we continued our tradition from last year. We went to El Super Taco and I had a Super Burrito again. Then we went to Safeway and Red Berry and caused some ruckus. Then I had work. Sad, I had work on last day of school. But it is all good. I cannot wait for the summer to really begin!!!!


---------------goals for summer--------------------------

1. learn how to drive (im almost a senior and i still do not know, SAD)
2. do summer work early
   
3. HAVE A KICKASS SUMMER because you freaking deserve it
4. save money. a lot of money. for the future
5. think about senior project. and research into it
6. go somewhere different.
   

-----ck.

eight days left.. and im counting

I feel bad for neglecting the blog a bit but I have nothing interesting to write lately haha. My life has been pretty simple and my new job at RED BERRY has been keeping me pretty damn busy. I work a lot lately. That is a good and bad thing. Good thing = money yay. Bad thing = tireeedd!! But I don't really have much homework to worry about. Just cruising for EIGHT MORE DAYS (minus weekends) and it is SUMMER.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? SUMMER '08 ARE YOU REALLY THAT CLOSE?
you really are. and i am amazed. and also sad. because that summer is really too close and really too short. it really will be. i just want a good summer.
i dont want to have expectations because it is always better to have no expectations.
like last summer, i had no expectations whatsoever, and it was a good summer.
a good simple summer. that i truely enjoyed.

Well since I probably getting paid NEXT WEEK and I have worked at least over 20 hours...counting hours... at least 24 hours x 8 dollars = $ 192 ALMOST $200 already!!! But I am putting a lot in the bank and probably going to limit myself to like... $20-40 dollars for shopping/partying/eating out stuff. I really need some shoes and some clothes. Hopefully I can blow $20 with some good thrift shopping and still get a lot of clothes which actually does happen. I need to save my tips and stop going out to eat with my friends.

Funny pic for the day since it has been ages since I posted a picture or music.

Picture with my AP CHEM sisters and our really cool substitute teacher