summer breeze

Reasons why I have not been blogging lately

1. trying to get through the last couple months of senior year without blowing my head
   
2. have lost all interest in everything on the internet except facebook; yes even lost interest fashion for awhile
3. should have been working on my senior project and getting my life together
4. trying to cram every minute that i did not devote to educational purposes to hanging out with high school friends
5. ran out of witty subjects to blog about

Reasons why I should be blogging again

1. it is summer; NO SCHOOL!!!!
   
2. i am officially done with high school (oh such a scary thought)
   
3. i have three months of nothing to do until college starts (another scary thought)
4. need to get back into the blogging habit

Well it has been a long hiatus since me and Pachia have been on here. Well we had good reasons because we were trying to survive the last couple months of senior year! So many things to do like senior project, senior boards, senior activities, graduation, etc! Well it is all over and I am happy. Summer is finally here. But sadly Sacramento has been a bit windy so it feels no different. So we have finally passed a "rite of passage" in our lives. We graduated!


How do I feel about not being in high school anymore? Great. I thought I would have some life-changing emotions flowing through me during the ceremony but I was just content and mostly bored. Maybe it is because I know I am going to see my good friends over summer (and I have been seeing them a lot lately over the last couple days). Maybe it is because I know it won't come to an end until September when we all "leave". Maybe it is because everything always hits me at the very end and I will be the one bawling my eyes out on the trip to San Diego. But, I do not feel anything yet.

But I have noticed a difference. I have noticed that everything isnt exactly the same. I already accepted the fact that people drift. It has happened to me but I am not the type of person to feel heartbroken about it. But I already see it happening NOW. I am not the type of person to drop a friend over one mistake. That is not how friendships are maintained and I know I do not want to lose a close friend for a mistake that can be forgiven and changed. I just wish others would feel the same "forgive and forget" as I do. But that doesnt mean I am going to blindsight the major issue. I would rather address it then drop the friend and ignore the problem.

Looking back at my four years in high school, I am satisfied. I have done all I could and tried my best and I have gotten the best results. A friend asked me if there was anything I could change about my four years and I realized I do not have anything I would change. Everything happened for a reason. I didn't start off with a great freshman year but I learned from that and I knew that I wanted to have a great high school experience and my goal was set to have fun sophomore year. And fun I did have. I made great friends who I hope to keep. I learned so much in the last four years by my teachers, friends and from myself. I did not have an awesome life changing experience in high school, but I know I can look back happily at those memories and move on forward knowing who I am a little better. I know starting college will be a little scary but I have the experience from high school to know that it is always scary in the beginning but in the end, it is just fine.

For my senior project I wrote and published a book called How to Survive High School: A Senior's Memoirs. You can preview it on the site. It really sums up the little tips I learned over my four years and talks about things that we always talk about our peers with but never really try and extend the information to people who need it. I found a quote that sums up high school.

"Beginnings are scary, endings are usually sad; it's what you do in between that counts the most."

Summer seems very long this year. I have exactly three months because I do not leave until mid-September for UCSD. I am ALREADY BORED because I do not have a job this summer. I need to seriously search for one. I wish it was just as easy as it was last time to get a job.

Summer goals (because we all need some)

1. get a job
2. go skinny dipping at least once
3. go streaking at least once (however not fully naked...)
4. look for perfect jumpsuit and perfect overalls

It is a summer and I do not feel like dressing up every day. I will be living in my boxer shorts or my cutup denim shorts and plain tees. But I really want to find the perfect jumpsuit and overalls. I am not into the harem pants jumpsuits. I know 80's is coming back but I prefer the modified 80's look, not the tacky over the top ones. I wanted the somewhat loose, tailored jumpsuit look or the fitted look.

I have also been wanting overall shorts since like sophomore year when I saw this really cute senior girl wear them with a frilly top. It was inspirational.

Images courtesy of chictopia and forever21. I wish lookbook would let us copy the images. They have some awesome pics of overalls!

---christina

finally FREEE.

Pachia is gaaaaayyy and says she has nothing to post so I will post. So this week has been pretty crazy. I have officially ended junior year, went to graduation of my senior friends, took SAT IIs and lots of finals. CRAZY!!! Looking back, it seems like this was not a couple days ago. Well Tuesday and Thursday were finals but Thursday was last day and I actually did not have any serious finals in my classes. Yay.

WEDNESDAY's graduation. I didn't go to school that day because it was only 3 hours long and I wanted to leave for graduation before everyone else did after school. Hanh, Tiffany, and Jessica got a ride from me. I-5 was closed so we took the long way (local), felt like a million years to get to Arco Arena. To say it short; graduation was pretty okay. But the whole time I was thinking "This is us next year!" As I saw seniors walking the stage, people making the speeches, all I could think was about next year and ME GRADUATING and MY FRIENDS GRADUATING?! Surreal. Very. I cannot believe we have gotten this far. The two speeches made by the valedictorian (who I actually know) and the speaker at large (who I also know) were pretty inspirational. Even though they said the usual "cliche" kind of things... I felt the speeches were directed at me also. Gabe's quote for his speaker at large speech was the best.

“And will you succeed?
Yes! You will indeed!

(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed)”

-----DR SEUSS "oh, the places you will go"

Amy's valedictorian speech was mainly about how we should not be afraid of success. At first I was thinking.. I am more afraid of failure but I think at the same time, she is right. We are afraid of taking the future HEAD ON and being afraid to do things alone. We have to take chances. She inspired me to think that I will change my attitude for senior year. I AM GOING TO TAKE SENIOR YEAR FULL ON and no complaints and no fears. This whole time that people have being saying "oh yeah we are finally gonna be seniors yay". But I am in denial. I really do not want to be a senior. I am just a little girl who wants to stay at home and suck her thumb. But I have to be brave. I have to not fear anything. I will just do it and get it done! FOR ME AND ME ONLY!!!

But after the graduation, we rushed to go find as many of our senior friends as we could and take pictures and have "last goodbyes". I did not find all my friends :(, but it was all good. It was fun and it was actually a pretty happy event, I did not cry at all.

Tiffany, Francis and Me.
Francis went to the Phillipines for college :(

Before Graduation, at my house. Our dresses!!!
I wore my "wild dress".

Gabe had a million things in his hand so we (tiffany and I)
had to pull out his phone out of his pocket and hold it for him,
while we were taking pictures he was on the phone.

Jirell and ME.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL was on Thursday. It was a really chill day for me. In AP Chemistry we had a potluck. So we wanted to make pancakes from the left over mix we had because Chem Club always has breakfast meetings. So we took two hot plates and foil on both. We put enough batter for one small pancake on one hot plate, then we took the foil and flipped it on to the other. Taylor sprayed on some non-stick spray (BAD IDEA) and we put the pancake batter on. Then it started to sizzle and bubble and Lissah thought it smelled weird and she said we should flip it. So we took the foil and flipped it but then IT BURST INTO FLAMMMMMESSS. It was right underneath the wooden cabinents too. Well we paniced and we couldn't think of anything to do. I was in the motion of thinking which way to run to put out the fire even though there was sweet tea in front of me and a sink next to the fire. Well the fire died out by itself a minute after but we were all shocked. We probably would have died at our slow reactions. We had to open the doors and windows because of the smoke. It was pretty crazy. That was a nice way to end AP Chemistry. At lunch, we just took lots of silly last day pictures of course.

Our cheesy crew

In celebration for last day of school, we continued our tradition from last year. We went to El Super Taco and I had a Super Burrito again. Then we went to Safeway and Red Berry and caused some ruckus. Then I had work. Sad, I had work on last day of school. But it is all good. I cannot wait for the summer to really begin!!!!


---------------goals for summer--------------------------

1. learn how to drive (im almost a senior and i still do not know, SAD)
2. do summer work early
   
3. HAVE A KICKASS SUMMER because you freaking deserve it
4. save money. a lot of money. for the future
5. think about senior project. and research into it
6. go somewhere different.
   

-----ck.