What will I be?

Lied wide awake all night just thinking about my future.

I couldn't sleep. As much as I told my myself to stop thinking and start snoozing, I was actually happily relenting, allowing my mind to wander, and dream, and roam free.

I felt so sure about what I wanted to do...for the first time. Started to visualise and I felt excited. Felt so confident about my choice that it scared me. Doesn't happen usually as I'm always weighing the pros and cons, that up until now I still cannot make up my mind.

But when I woke up this morning into bright daylight, into reality, doubts started to sink in again. I started to be unsure and afraid. Feeling unable to measure up, doubting if I'm cut out for it.

When will I ever be sure?

When will I ever know?

But Daddy, you've been faithfully giving me opportunities to 'test-run' my ambition.

Guess I'll know after all is said and done :)

love, careen.