Socila Media is Tough on Shy Types ...

So the other day my status update on Facebook was “I think I'm going to send a friend request to every person on each of my friend's friend's lists.” 

Okay, even though that would be kind of hilarious, I wasn’t really serious.  But, when I noted that Matt-Man had added a bunch of people and now had MORE friends on Facebook than me, I figured I needed to step my Facebook Friends game up.  So, I did send out a good number of friend requests.

All but two were ignored.

Oh man, this is why I don’t do friend requests on Facebook too often.  Unless they’re just so damn hot/funny/cool/friendly etc that I can’t resist.  It’s just a total ego destroyer to have a friend request ignored.

Not the random “they look like they’re pretty funny or interesting” person so much, but the ones who have like 10 or 13 friends in common? Yeah, that kinda sucks.  Oh and the ones who send out mass emails about this or that and then say “Don’t forget to add me on Facebook” and then I do and it gets ignored.  That’s just fucking rude right  there.

Actually, I don't care. No really. I don't. I don't care if they don't want me on their friend list or not. It's not a big deal. I mean, I don't actually know these people. But, being rejected? That part sucks. That's why I don't send out too many friend requests.

I guess it's just human nature to focus on the handful of rejections instead of the 165 who either accepted or sent me a friend request. Much like focusing more on the negative comments about this blog or the radio show than the positive.

I mean, 99% of the people I've experienced here in the bloggerhood and when it comes to the show have been really supportive and shit like that. Many of them VERY much so. So, there's really no reason to focus so much on that one bitter, angry old hag to called the show “crap.” Right? And I really shouldn't react by caller her a “bitter, angry old hag” should I?

For some of us, putting ourselves “out there” on blogs and Twitter and Facebook and internet radio shows is much harder than for others. Some people have no problem with this shit. They're such extroverts that doing this stuff is routine and no big deal at all.

Hell, Avitable is taking a stand-up comedy class and is about to get up on stage and do a comedy bit IN FRONT OF PEOPLE! That's something I really don't think I could do. I'm considering doing my next Monologue Blog, like the one I did last week as an audio blog. Which is scary enough as it is. But, to make it easier, I'm thinking about adding the “ba-dum-bum” sound and even the sound effect of people laughing so I'll think I'm funny to the audio file.

It took me like two years to finally convince myself to do a blog. And then it took more than three years to talk myself into doing a radio show. Even after five years, many times I sit here with the cursor sitting over the “publish” button wondering if I really want to do this. After 23 radio shows I still sit here ten minutes til 10 o'clock ready to call in and I get all nervous and shit. And five years from now I'll probably still have that same feeling of nervousness and panic when posting or hosting.

Which is just totally ridiculous. I go through these periods where I don't blog, not because I don't have anything to blog about, but I just don't wanna publish it. Is that silly or what? By now it should all be sure easy and casual and not be a problem at all. Instead, it sometimes seem like it's getting harder rather than easier. And I do realize this seems weird since I just hit 30,000 tweets tonight. But, I honestly have the same problems there sometimes. Oh and Facebook. I keep trying to be more involved on Facebook, but it just doesn't seem to happen. Probably too much family there though.

Does anyone else have this same problem? Or maybe I just take all this shit way to seriously? That's probably it. 

Also, everyone go over and wish Matt-Man a happy birthday. Or send him nude pics. Or both.