what a day for love.

right now i'm just mad, because i asked my mom to help me alter my prom dress and she blew me off! told me to go do it by myself, while she went back to playing that obsessive Dr. Mario game on super nintendo, which my whole entire family has been consuming their lives with over the past few weeks (including me). aggh. that really pisses me off. reaaaalllyyyyyy. aljfghasljhg! everything is just getting me mad today. i am not in a good mood. junior prom may only be two days away, but i think that is actually adding onto my negative feelings... adgsaglsjdalsjdhgasl;udhgsl;adhgsdghs;dgh! the computer in my room is also so freaking slow, and its starting to irritate me a lot. for the past few weeks its been getting slower and slower, and i've been patient and fine about it, but today its just really getting me mad. i'm trying to listen to daphne loves derby on imeem, but its not loading for meee! my hands are freeeezing, ice cold! my overgrown bangs keep getting in my eyes! and i'm noticing everything wrong right now! and thats irritating me too! ahhhh... i'm going insane. i need to chill out.....

well. on another note, the simplest thing is keeping me happy and sane this week/today...

yesterday tommy and i went to LOLLICUP after school (it was his birthday, by the way :) and i ordered myself a strawberry milk tea + some fried calamari for him. it was good, i liked it... a lot better than the lollicup that used to be across the street from our school. but now i kinda regret not going to lollicup more when it was there. of course the service was bad, and they would give your drinks to the wrong people and take forever to make your drink in the first place (speaking from my won past experiences), but atleast the drinks were delicious. not to mention, the place was cute, with an upstairs area and a big wall to write all over, along with free internet! but i guess that new mexican place there isnt so bad either. its still cute and we still can use the internet for free. the food is also inexpensive-- they sell pupusas, which actually taste quite interesting, and is only $1! (the customer service is also good now too.)

ahhhh! my stomach is grumbling now!

well... HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

♥pachia

love, love, love. it's february!

i have this habit of writing random little "letters" to myself throughout the week when there is nothing to do. and recently i stumbled upon some writing that actually caught my eye.

"I'm sad but I'm happy... and I'm happy but I'm sad. But the weird thing is, I think this is the most content I've been with myself in my whole entire life. I've simply come to accept reality and embrace everything thrown at me whether it is good or bad. I'm happy. Happy to know that my life is beautiful, and sad to know that it is only temporary."

that was actually all i wrote, minus the first sentence which wasn't really necessary to quote. but really i lied. i make it sound as if i wrote this a long time ago when really i only wrote it a week ago. it was in the morning while i waiting for school to start (to be exact). i found it yesterday with a bunch of my other notes for photography class. but still, it surprised me. i had forgotten all about it. i forget about a lot of stuff these days, i have such a bad memory. but yeah. i don't want to sound weird or anything, but i kinda just amazed myself for a moment when i read what i had written.

anyways, my aunt had a baby boy two days ago. his name is derren vang and he's 21 inches and 8 pounds! what a fattie :) he's so adorable though. and he has a whole head full of hair. we went to visit him in the hospital and he looks and sounds just like his older sisters. yay, i can't wait to see him again this weekend.
my brother's birthday was last sunday. and today he got his xbox360! how freaking lucky is that? i only ask for a simple crummy phone so i can atleast still have something to use-- anything to use, but oh well. i'm starting my volunteering hours tomorrow, tutoring kids, to prepare for my summer tutor job. so that will be something to look forward to.

so far, the great gatsby is very intruiging. but i kinda think mr. cosgrove's "to me it is the most gorgeous and beautifully written book ever" speech might've already won me over before i even began reading the book. so, i'm not sure. but i think it's beautifully written as well. i've read a lot farther than most people have, but i've refrained myself from actually finishing it. our junior projects have been assigned, and i signed up to do Anne Lamott, which is someone Mr. Cosgrove actually knows, but i'm not sure if i'm actually going to keep her. basically we have to do an annotated bibliography on a writer/author, and i just kinda chose someone for the sake of choosing someone. i'll figure it out soon enough. yay for a new month. (is it weird that i keep mentioning my literature teacher? oh my...)

OH MY GOODNESS! JUNIOR PROM IS FOURTEEN DAYS AWAY :D i will get my dress altered this weekend. and buy some cute gloves as well! even if i'm not going to san francisco with kristina or courtney, errythang'll be just as good.

eleven days until tommy's birthday (what will i ever get him!?!) and twelve more days until valentines day (what will i ever get him?!?).

♥ pachia!