----
i thought you were what i got to know but instead you're what i get to write about. next time i'll be more careful or not. when i try now to picture your silhouette, against which others are only measured, it's blinding not because it's pretty but reflective. your outline, a big mirror, is brighter than snow and the symbol's simple enough, i never really got inside you or however 1 might put it. i acknowledge reflections can't decide they'll differ and that this is a shitty way to think of us, so as you requested when we still talked i stopped.
1 more time idleness lights a meal we ate 2ce, years+years back, weeks into living here. challah grilled cheese w bok choy, blue table. not even that great, try and know what it conceals, did i learn something 1 or both times that made me want to protect you? bendix diner's not there anymore, neither are most things and when this dual moment haloes i wonder. in this city that 'doesn't' nap, light reeks like sunday at 330pm. brunch doesn't end, night came yesterday, sleep through monday but not what i want to speak about.
on the street by where the city's first trader joe's later got built we saw the actor who played 'justin' on a gay cable drama and this doesn't matter either, at all, except i remember following your eyes in a way that was similar to something i couldn't call back but gave me déja vu so consuming it stung. not good or bad hurt just deep. not able to articulate what was happening, i saw besides it had happened before in almost exactly the same way which was touching and hard. the past was the most difficult thing i ever felt, until the future.
happiest dancing across from you in 2/4, look for a better word than happiest. indicate not a degree of feeling but a kind: the way 1 stood by the fire or didn't, has sucked cock for money or hasn't. become delibertately inarticulate instead. spend your summer on it.
scan the same photograph, drink mexican coke made ill by my 'lifestyle'. a room with no view is preferred; somewhere there's a ticket. i won't google you. i promise. how can you keep the same haircut and change everything else? don't answer that i mean, you can if you want.
-
p.s. Hey. I don't want to say much about Math's guest-post because it's fully in and of itself, and I don't want to handle it and mess it up, so thank you, Math, and thanks to everyone for your attention and feedback today. I do have an unrelated question, asked on a whim and out of curiosity: Who is your all-time favorite singer? Or singers, if you can't name just one. My favorite is Gram Parsons, and I think my next two favorites would be Robin Zander of Cheap Trick and Roy Wood (The Move, etc.). That's fave(s) as of the current moment, of course. Anyway, let me know yours, if you don't mind. Thanks! ** Bill, Hey. Great, I'm glad you liked the post. Oh, right, the Observatory ... thanks for reminding me. I'm not sure if I'll have the time to get out to Brooklyn on this pretty quick, packed trip, but, if I have the time, I definitely will. Yeah, thanks a lot for reminding me. Enjoy your last couple of days down there, man. ** L@rstonovich, Oh, right. Living with a system. Yeah, the kind of games that I tend to love generally ask for 40 to 60 hours of my time, and you have to live with a game like that, obviously. ** David Ehrenstein, I know the Franju, although I haven't seen it since, gosh, college? Time to refresh. I hope the French interview was interesting. Was it? I think I know that magazine 'BH'. Or I mean I think I see it prominently around Paris a lot. Pass on your thoughts on the new Araki, if you will. The people I know who saw during its French run said it's Araki going back to his 'Nowhere' era thing, and people's opinions seem to depend on whether they like that phase of Araki's stuff or not. ** Patrick deWitt, Hey, Patrick! So looking forward to your book. A Western! That is such an exciting idea in relation to your voice and style and writing. Sounds incredible. Oh, how the post played into my novel? Not specifically, although a legendary, unnamed French magician is a key reference. The novel is kind of an elaborate sleight of hand, smokescreen, fake facade, etc, and magic, magic tricks, the formal elements of magic shows, etc. are one of the thematic through-lines and interlinked reference points that make the novel's 'trick' work, at least in the schematic of the narrator who's doing the sleight of hand. Wow, that probably makes no sense at all, ha ha. It's a 'hard to explain easily' novel, I guess. Anyway, thanks for asking, man. ** Jon Reiss, Hey. Yeah, I think 'Lunar Park' is really underrated, both by critics and by a lot of BEE fans. Oh, now that you describe that restaurant, it sounds very familiar. Hunh. I'm not sure if I'm up for getting possibly trounced, especially being a vegetarian who often has to ask if dishes can be made meatless. Let me see how my courage goes in the next days. Sure, of course, I'd be happy to do that interview. Thanks a lot. Sure, just let me know how you want to do it. Do you want to do it while I'm here, or ... ? I think I might have time, if so. Nice of you to want/ask, man. ** David, Yeah, I'm here again at the center of the big whatever, ha ha. ** Christopher/ Mark, Hi, Mark! It's really nice being here in NYC, I have to say. For some reason, the last time I was here, also doing 'Them', I got kind of re-smitten with NYC after years of feeling out of touch with the city and a bit alienated from it. But, yeah, like you, I won't be adventuring too much, or not on this trip. The Warhol movies at MoMA and the Paul Thek at the Whitney are definitely goals, if I can squeeze out the hours needed to get uptown. Maybe I'll get those Isherwood diaries while I'm here. Yeah, I should. I'm really glad you're back here, man, of course, of course. I hope one of these times we'll get lucky and be in the City at the same time, or else I'll finally some way to get down to where you are. ** T. boettner, Hey there! It's really great to see you here! Thanks a lot for gracing this place. Sure, of course, I'll do an alert, and I hope it helps. Sounds like a great project. Everyone, Thomas Boettner, who's an amazing creator of music among many other great things, and whose project/ band fireisland, AK is highly recommended by me, is soliciting for a project, and here he is to tell you about it: 'Mark Ward (Where is This) and Thomas Boettner (fire island, AK) are curating a queer noise compilation. We are looking for noise / harsh noise / power electronics / HNW / blackened noise / etc. tracks from anyone who self-identifies as non-heterosexual. Submission deadline is 30 JAN 2011, tracks under 10 minutes. Submissions emailed to: anotherthreewordbandname@gmail.com or midas.heart@gmail.com'. If you fit the bill, I can't recommend that you submit work to Mark and Thomas highly enough. Thanks a lot, man. All respect to you. ** Ken Baumann, Hi, Ken! The problem with GbV is where to start. I'd say either go with their probably most classic era, meaning get one or both of these albums to start: 'Bee Thousand' or 'Alien Lanes'. Another way to go would be to get the 'best of' CD because it's full of non-stop great stuff, and it will also give you an overview of their oeuvre and development and different phases. It's called ' Human Amusements At Hourly Rates'. On second thought, getting that 'best of' comp might be the best way to go as a beginning. On Pollard, it's super hard because he's released like a thousand albums. I compiled a 2CD 'best of' Pollard solo work a few years ago, and maybe I can burn it for you. Let me see if I can figure out the technology to do that from whatever version I have on my hard drive. Awesome, man! ** Math, Hey. Thanks so much for today. It's an honor. It's also, like, historical or something because it's easily the fastest turn over on a submitted guest post ever. Yeah, thanks! Love you, too. Yeah, let's meet up somehow. A cheap coffee or whatever would be totally ace, if nothing else. ** Sypha, You're probably being too hard on it, yeah. That's logical. Cool about the proofs. It's getting more and more real. That is an excellent cover, geez. Everyone, Sypha aka the fine writer James Champagne just finished a long-in-the-works novel called 'The Marble Index', and you can see its cool cover art and read a bit about the novel here, and you definitely should, IMHO. ** Alexp336, Hey. Yeah, it's tablet city this year, right? Are they showing off the DS-3D or whatever it's called ... 3DS? I'm curious to get a look at that, being both a gamer and a Nintendo devotee. I'm trying to hold off on getting a tablet for another year or something 'cos I don't really need it. Yet. I keep telling myself. Me too, about magic when I was growing up. I belonged to a 'Magic Trick of the Month Club' where they would send you a new trick every thirty days. That was excitement central. London events ... not yet, but if this new UK publishing deal happens, and it's still a big if, I think 'Smothered in Hugs' would come out over there this spring, and I would come over for promotion of that. Otherwise, maybe a trip for fun or something, But, yeah, I'll let you know. It would be great to meet up. You going to get to Paris at some point? ** No more teenagekicks, Hey, Mark! Thanks. Yeah, it'd be very cool to see you. Maybe we can figure something out for a meet? After today, I'll be sort of free-ish in between the performances. ** MANCY, Cool, you're a 'LP' fan too. We came out of the woodwork here yesterday. Nice. I hope you're doing well. ** Alan, Hey. Oh, new neighborhood ... you've moved? Okay, good move on the video link. That was hilarious. Everyone, courtesy of Alan, and vis a vis the magic post yesterday, click this link to ... well, I'll let you find out. Thanks a lot, man. ** Misanthrope, Yeah, buzz me when you're in. I think Friday is looking fairly good on my personal freedom front so far. Oh, my culinary doppelganger Anthony Bourdain, right. I have to go check that guy or me or us out. Will do. Safe trip here, if I don't talk to you before. ** Andrew, Hey. Yeah, I really like Salem. Their last one came hair's breadth of making my list. Excellent stuff, yeah. ** Laurabeth, Hey. 'VERY IMPORTANT', wow, cool, okay. Actually, if there's a blog dinner set up for my birthday, it's news to me. Maybe I missed something. That might be great, but I don't know my exact schedule and time frame and stuff for that evening yet, and I'm not sure if I actually want to have some big birthday dinner thing, so, if that's being planned by people, we should coordinate first to see if and how and when that could work. Sure, we can meet on the 9th, during the day or before the show or something. That's no problem. Yeah, so no worries. Don't worry that you're missing some big pre-set event or something. The only I remember vis a vis my birthday is that Misanthrope asked about maybe having dinner with me on the 10th, and me saying I thought that might work but that I needed to check things out to be sure. Again, maybe I missed or misunderstood or misstated something. ** Chilly Jay Chill, Hey, Jeff! Oh, really? That's wild. I mean that you're doing an in-progress thing while I'm here. I'll go find your emails with the info and stuff. Yeah, I would love to see that. It depends on whether this tentative meeting thing happens early that afternoon and, if so, whether it will conflict or not. I should know today. But, yeah, I would love to see that. I hope I can. I guess I'll write to you about all this later? Thanks, Jeff! I heard and maybe owned the Krause/Coyne album at some point. I remember it being quite odd and oddly pretty, but I don't have a clear memory of it. I mean, chances are, given that duo, it must be pretty interesting, no matter what. ** Creative Massacre, Hey. Oh, the bunny thing looks really cool. Everyone, Creative Massacre is making this cool art piece called 'Gas Mask Bunny logo', and, in her words, 'it's on a 11 x 14 canvas tagged with spray paint and touched up with acrylic. Once it's dry completely, I will add a Jackson Pollack-esque paint splatter to it and it's complete.' Check it out here. That burrito does sounds pretty delicious. Suggestions, hm ... well, my favorite vegetarian substance is seitan. Aka wheat gluten. It depends on how it's prepared, but it can be incredibly delicious, and it's kind of the most meat-like veggie thing in terms of its girth and substantiality. It's a big staple of my diet. So, you might try cooking with it or trying out foods that are made with it. ** Bollo, Hi. Oh, sorry about the grind and repetition. I hear you. At least grinds self-destruct soonish in most cases. I don't know that Columbine book. The debunking aspect sounds interesting. Ha ha, constricted fun, you bet, I will. You too, at the very least. ** Inthemostpeculiarway, Hey. It's funny 'cos right after I finished the p.s. yesterday, I checked Pitchfork, and there's a new news item there about an upcoming Cults tour. You might go take a look. That smoking room in the Air France terminal at CDG is pretty super rare, I think. God love the French. Well, your day was low key, but it was still pretty interesting. You always make everything sound magical 'cos you write so well. So, don't worry. My Wednesday: After finishing the blog, I showered, got my shit together, bought some food (Pad Thai, Thai dumplings, egg salad sandwich) to take to the rehearsals 'cos they were from noon to 10 pm. I walked over there. It was actually very pleasant outside here yesterday. I could unbutton my coat while walking and everything. The rehearsal was, well, long. But fun. I say rehearsal, but it was also setting the lights, sound check, a lot technical stuff. The goat arrived, but I haven't seen it yet. We decided not to rehearse with it because, well, it has to survive through Monday night, and we don't want to push it, especially because the theater space we're in is very warm/hot for some reason, and we can't do anything about that, it seems, so this version of the show is going to be sweatier and probably stinkier than the earlier one. So, we walked/ went through the piece all day, bit by bit, figuring out how best to make the choreography work with the smaller area available, and trying to do interesting things with the lighting because it's a much more primitive set up, and it'll be a lot more raw looking than the last time. We found out that the Saturday and Sunday shows are sold out, and Monday is getting there, so that's cool. We took a break for eating and stuff. There's this place down the street from the venue that makes homemade donuts called Donut Plant, and they're pretty terrific, and we sort of gorged on those and drank coffee. I don't know what else. We did a run-through at 8 pm, and this guy Almon Grimsted, who was in the piece back in the early 80s and is an awesome guy/performer based in Stockholm now, came to watch with his 15 year-old nephew, and they thought it was cool. The day went okay. No big dramas or anything. I got really sleepy 'cos of my jetlag, so I just came back to the hotel after we finished around 11 pm and ate crap and watched the SyFy channel 'cos, obviously, that's a novelty for Parisian me. Oh, one cool thing: when I got back, there was an email from my editor at Harper Perennial saying he really likes my novel, so phew, but the higher ups have to approve the novel before it's accepted, and we'll see, but at least it's closer now to being maybe official, fingers crossed. That was my day. Today I'm free for a while and then I have a final rehearsal. I hope today pleases you more than yesterday did, and I want to hear about whatever happened. ** Armando, Hey, man. Really? Okay, we'll disagree a little, I guess. I didn't think it was a bad film at all, but I thought it was a lesser Scorcese, for sure. I still haven't seen 'Whatever Works'. I guess it's a DVD by now. Cool. I still haven't even started 'IE'. I will when I get back to Paris, though. ** Paul Curran, Hey. Great that your plunge or re-plunge into the novel felt so good. I'm hanging for yours too, man. Big time. I can't wait, but I can wait. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hey, man. Yeah, what are the chances your work mates look at my blog? Next to nil, right? Use the excuse, I say. Ha ha, I was actually saving 'The American' to watch on my flight back to Paris 'cos it's an in-flight option, and it's a good thing that spoilers never spoil movies for me. Thanks on the hopes for the show. We'll do our best. ** Davidc, Hi, David! Ah, your blog is back! Excellent. Everyone, Davidc, one of most venerable d.l.s and just a hell of a guy on every front, has reengaged with his lovely blog after ages and ages of dormancy, and that's your cue to either engage or reengage with it by going here. Do. I hope your headache passes with the night ahead at the very latest. Thanks, David. All the very to you and Dom. ** Okey-doke. Be with Math, please. Also, name your favorite singer and sate my curiosity, only if you feel like it. I'll go do stuff, and then I'll see you tomorrow.
No comments:
Post a Comment